Accepting and changing

Hi, my name is Cinnamon, I feel very honoured to have been asked to write a guest blog post by Mistress Peyton, and have struggled for a few days to come up with a good idea. However I think i’d like to make a post about how I feel I have grown as a person since I started to accept my submissive side more.

Over the last few years I have been no stranger to exploring my submissive and cross dressing side, which I’ve been aware of since my teen years. Although I used to try and hide it, I dont think I particularly felt ashamed as such, just was aware that maybe I was a little different from the norm. I still remember buying my first ever lipstick, It was around Halloween one year and I remember saying it was for a fancy dress costume, how original right??

Up until april last year, my only real experiences were online, and on phone sex platforms, it became like a little treat for myself every now and again, and with the Mean Girls who I called regularly turned into my first period of orgasm control. Most of the calls I had revolved around humiliation, with plenty of teasing, and a fair few in between call assignments. However I was still hiding my kinky side, I have a couple of really good close friends, one in particular who could tell there was something going on with me, she had no idea what, but that I always seemed to be a bit closed off, especially around ideas like dating (i guess theres only so many ways I can turn down being set up on blind dates) I can remember the afternoon so clearly, she came round to mine and basically said she wasn’t leaving till she knew what was going on. There was a lot of tears, a lot of hugging, and for me a huge sense of relief, ever since then she has been so supportive with things like advice on clothing, and just chatting etc

I had been getting an itch for a while, and at the end of another intense phone call with the Mean Girls I asked them if they would mind if I tried to make a session appointment with a Mistress in my localish area. They said it was ok, and after some research and a couple of enquiries I found myself with a session booked with Mistress Courtney. I had no idea whatsoever what to expect, I had mentioned some of my interests, and the couple of hard limits I have but was really taking a step into the unknown. I had such a rush of feelings that day, from the nerves beforehand, all the way to the excitement in the dungeon and the floaty feeling of exhilaration I felt afterwards. I think I knew straight away that I would try to do something like this again.

Over the next year and a bit I’ve had a few more sessions with Mistress Courtney, and have been lucky enough to meet some wonderful people who have helped me look at things differently, and experience things I have never thought would be possible. From helping Mistress at a filming day, (very eye-opening for someone who hasnt exactly got very extreme tastes) which has happened a few times since as well, to being a helper for Mistress as she did a demo at a hen party (bachelorette party for the Americans) Now that was pretty humiliating but at the same time thrilling. I also have been out a few times as Cinnamon, I found some kinky parties that were being held in a Dungeon Chambers not too far away and have been to a few now, as well as going to a fetish club in London with Mistress Courtney, and a femdom night in Manchester.

Heres the thing, I still consider myself to be fairly new at all of this, but know that I am really enjoying it. I have found that my thoughts and fantasies seem to be evolving all the time, I no longer have that same craving for humiliation, dont get me wrong used in play it would leave me weak at the knees, but say outside of a session Its not something I want all the time. Whereas I get cravings now for things like being restrained, spanked and all sorts that i’d never really experienced before. I guess being out as Cinnamon at the kinky parties has given me a confidence, and an escape. I know I did all my kinky things locked away at home in the past but now I have an avenue to explore it all, and luckily I feel totally accepted. This has really helped me in my vanilla life, yes damn I have a pretty crappy day job, but I no longer feel miserable about it every day. I know that its just an essential part of life that helps me indulge in this other side of me.

Somehow in real life as well I feel more confident. Maybe when I was hiding this side of me away deep down I thought there was something wrong with me, i’ve realized now that there isn’t, everybody is different and theres nothing wrong with being myself.  Yes in vanilla life there aren’t exactly many people who know. I think i’ll keep it that way, but most people around me (friends, family, colleagues) say I seem much happier now, Ironically some of them think I have a secret girlfriend or something.

Looking forward I know i’ll keep exploring my kinks and fetishes, and am looking forward to trying some more things that Mistress Courtney has mentioned, and attend more kinky events as and when I can. Although I dont really go in for the phones ex calls anymore though I do still have a soft spot for the Mean Girls, I think the calls I had with them over the course of a year built me into a position where I felt the urge to explore in real life. I tell you I am so glad I did.

Cinnamon

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Changing

changing

Thank You for helping me, i can feel myself changing, my purpose and desires changing. It can be confusing at times but i know everything that is happening is for the best. The conversations we have, the images You paint for me are overwhelming any other thoughts or desires i may have had.

Each time we talk i feel clearer about my place in the world and the place of men in general. If i am confused or off on any of my thinking please correct me. i am not a person (men are not persons) i am an object, to be owned, used, for the pleasure and amusement of You (of Women).

Women are superior to men in all respects. Women are persons. Because men are owned objects they can be used any way a Woman sees fit.

i love You and i will obey You completely.

….. Very nice wouldn’t you say so??

Talk Soon,

Miss Peyton

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If Only To Serve Mistress

The following is what one Sub dreams of daily If ONLY I’d allow it ….. “To Serve Mistress”

If Onlyi show up at Miss Peyton’s house. She welcomes me in and explains how i am there to submit to Her. She asks me if i understand. i say yes. She replies “I don’t think you do understand!” and then kicks me in the balls. i drop to the floor. She goes on to explain how i need to respect Her superiority, Her Womanhood, Her power. She orders me to strip naked and kneel before Her. i comply. She exams my body and has a good laugh humiliating me by telling me how small my cock is and how pathetic it is. She grabs my balls and squeezes them tight as She stares into my eyes and tells me “these balls are now mine! Do you understand!” i reply, “yes”. Then, she twists my cock and says, “this dicklet….it is also mine!”. Then, She runs Her hands all over my body and explains how all of me belongs to Her. Then She pulls on my nipples and asks, “AM I CLEAR!” i let out a moan and reply, “Yes, Miss Peyton. She then grabs me by the chin and says, “this mouth! Is mine too!” Then, She grabs my head and says, “your mind is now under my control too!”

She spits in my face, spits on my….i mean Her dicklet and orders me to go to Her bedroom. Once there She tells me to get dressed and hands me a box. In the box, are a pair of blue satin panties and matching bra along with a pair of white thigh high stockings. She tells me this outfit goes good with the small package i have and laughs. Then, She orders me to clean Her bedroom. i say, “yes, Miss Peyton.” i dust the furniture, make the bed, and pick up clothes. She likes the job i did and as a reward allows me to worship Her feet.

I rub Her feet, message them, really work the arch and toes. Then, i kiss both Her feet…the tops, the bottoms, the toes…She then order me to suck on Her toes. i suck on each toe and in between each toe…tongue wrapped around Her toes. She allows me to rub my dicklet against Her feet. Just when it gets hard She pushes me away and kicks me in the balls and then laughs. She proceeds to order me to stroke until i reach the edge and then stop. She has me do this several times throughout the day. She orders me to clean Her bathroom next. i do so and have the whole room sparkling clean. She rewards me by further humiliating and teasing me. She squeezes my nipples, yanks my balls and whispers in my ear a reminder that i belong to Her.

She disappears for a bit but returns grinning from ear to ear. She is wearing high heels, stockings, a black skirt, a sexy bra. She says, “i got something for You….Get on Your knees now!”….i comply. She asks if i would like to eat what She has between Her legs. i eagerly say yes. She laughs and removes her skirt to reveal a strap-on, realistic looking white flesh dildo. She rubs it against my lips and then orders me to lick the head, then the shaft, then the balls. She order me to suck on the head and then tells me to suck on the whole thing and suck it as deep as i can.

My head is bobbing up and down on Her dildo. She takes control and fucks my mouth over and over. She then takes the wet dripping dildo and puts it against my dicklet to compare the size and she laughs as she smacks it with Her strap-on cock. She has me stroke myself as i suck Her some more. She proceeds to tell me i am there to do for Her what She commands and how i am beneath Her. She grabs my cock and strokes it. Just as i am ready to cum, she let’s go and lets the cum spirt out all over me. She wipes up the cum with Her hand and rubs it onto Her dildo all the while telling me She didn’t want that cum to be released yet and that i need to put it back inside me. She has me then suck all the cum off Her dildo as She laughs with pleasure.

She has me clean the rest of Her house and then shows me to my room. She has me lay there naked on the cold floor. For good measure, she spits on my face and rubs it in and then pees on my dicklet. She leaves the room and closes the door. i lay there eager for the next day where i can serve and entertain Her yet again…..

If Only..

Talk Soon,

Miss Peyton

1-800-863-5478 ext: 9978383

 

 

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Hot And Sexy Humiliation

Humiliation has many forms, it depends on the person who’s asked for it and the type of degrading they want to surrender themselves to. When in the proper context nothing can be more arousing, and if you ask me.. it’s down right hot and sexy!

Recently I found out from one sub in particular that he feels the most humiliation from the little things I have him endure.As I said nothing is more of a turn on, and I do find it very hot and sexy too. Especially knowing that I’ve not really tried to cause him discomfort in a specific way.

For some of you Humiliation requires the grande scheme of things, but here’s my thoughts on it. If you are already submitting yourself you should let Mistress decide how degrading your time will be. If it will be the little things or the greatest of all things to take you Humiliationdown deep.
Oh trust me when I say  I can be dark, I can have you in tears if you so choose, I just found it very interesting when a sub opens up and shares its the smallest of things I put him through that cause him the greatest of shame.

I’ve told you time and again that sexual situations begin and end with your mind. Once you’ve allowed me in that space nothing should be off limits great or small. Something for you to think about, think about the little thing that keep you exactly where you want to be. And then think back to the last time I unleashed on you. Off hand I can think of a few of you who’ve had me unleash who later called asking me not to carry through with certain wishes. You know exactly who you are.

Either way I believe however you crave the humiliation served up to you it’s an extraordinary experience because you’ve put all of who you are in my hands and you need me to take from you.

I hope I’ve given you a little something to think about, perhaps the last time you gave yourself to me or maybe it’s the way you want to learn to give. As long as you are thinking I believe we’re making progress.
Talk Soon Naughty Ones,
Mistress Peyton

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True Dedication to Mistress

True Dedication to Mistresss

Have you ever asked yourself what it would take to show True Dedication to Mistress?  If in fact you find yourself wondering that exact same question I’ll help outline what constitutes pure devotion.

Mistress has a couple subs that I write about often, in fact I have one that I’ve written about from day 1, and another who has proven he’s dedicated to becoming all he can be. Allow me to explain exactly what I mean by devotion.  Sub 1 (as we shall call him) has gone out of his way to prove himself as worthy to me by providing all access to his life.  He’s given me personal dates, names and locations.  He has been (for the most part) exactly where he said he’d be when he said he’d be there.  He’s given of himself in such a way that did not matter to him his own comfort or needs.

Let’s move to Sub2 with this particular sub he liked playing the catch me game.  You get what I mean, right?  He provided little details about his life, some true some he eluded to being the truth, while other details he would leave blank as if to hope I would catch him. Time and again he would tell me how he needed me to take full control of his life and destroy his need for being such a bad boy.

The funny thing about Sub2 is he forgot who he’d been dealing with, you see when push comes to shove and you give me just enough rope.. I’m going to hang you.  His exact location I found, I also found the place of employment as well as other private details about his life.  It was then and only then did Sub2 decide he could fully trust me to keep his secrets.  It was also then that Sub2 decided that he would show True Dedication to Mistress.

True Dedication comes from experience and trust.  Those two things don’t happen over night they are nurtured and grow with time.  Dedication comes with great responsibility as well, there are steps you take to show dedication.  You honor your word, do what is asked of you, but most of all you are honest and trustworthy.. be of good character.

Although I only mentioned two subs in this post I would like to acknowledge that there are those of you who are climbing the ranks, we speak on a weekly basis or you are always on point with my PTV Mailings  so we pretty much have formed that bond of trust.  Good Job to you!

In closing I will remind you True Dedication for Mistress is a whole new level of submission, once you achieve it you’ll never want to experience life any other way.

Talk Soon Naughty Ones,

Mistress Peyton

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