Accepting and changing

Hi, my name is Cinnamon, I feel very honoured to have been asked to write a guest blog post by Mistress Peyton, and have struggled for a few days to come up with a good idea. However I think i’d like to make a post about how I feel I have grown as a person since I started to accept my submissive side more.

Over the last few years I have been no stranger to exploring my submissive and cross dressing side, which I’ve been aware of since my teen years. Although I used to try and hide it, I dont think I particularly felt ashamed as such, just was aware that maybe I was a little different from the norm. I still remember buying my first ever lipstick, It was around Halloween one year and I remember saying it was for a fancy dress costume, how original right??

Up until april last year, my only real experiences were online, and on phone sex platforms, it became like a little treat for myself every now and again, and with the Mean Girls who I called regularly turned into my first period of orgasm control. Most of the calls I had revolved around humiliation, with plenty of teasing, and a fair few in between call assignments. However I was still hiding my kinky side, I have a couple of really good close friends, one in particular who could tell there was something going on with me, she had no idea what, but that I always seemed to be a bit closed off, especially around ideas like dating (i guess theres only so many ways I can turn down being set up on blind dates) I can remember the afternoon so clearly, she came round to mine and basically said she wasn’t leaving till she knew what was going on. There was a lot of tears, a lot of hugging, and for me a huge sense of relief, ever since then she has been so supportive with things like advice on clothing, and just chatting etc

I had been getting an itch for a while, and at the end of another intense phone call with the Mean Girls I asked them if they would mind if I tried to make a session appointment with a Mistress in my localish area. They said it was ok, and after some research and a couple of enquiries I found myself with a session booked with Mistress Courtney. I had no idea whatsoever what to expect, I had mentioned some of my interests, and the couple of hard limits I have but was really taking a step into the unknown. I had such a rush of feelings that day, from the nerves beforehand, all the way to the excitement in the dungeon and the floaty feeling of exhilaration I felt afterwards. I think I knew straight away that I would try to do something like this again.

Over the next year and a bit I’ve had a few more sessions with Mistress Courtney, and have been lucky enough to meet some wonderful people who have helped me look at things differently, and experience things I have never thought would be possible. From helping Mistress at a filming day, (very eye-opening for someone who hasnt exactly got very extreme tastes) which has happened a few times since as well, to being a helper for Mistress as she did a demo at a hen party (bachelorette party for the Americans) Now that was pretty humiliating but at the same time thrilling. I also have been out a few times as Cinnamon, I found some kinky parties that were being held in a Dungeon Chambers not too far away and have been to a few now, as well as going to a fetish club in London with Mistress Courtney, and a femdom night in Manchester.

Heres the thing, I still consider myself to be fairly new at all of this, but know that I am really enjoying it. I have found that my thoughts and fantasies seem to be evolving all the time, I no longer have that same craving for humiliation, dont get me wrong used in play it would leave me weak at the knees, but say outside of a session Its not something I want all the time. Whereas I get cravings now for things like being restrained, spanked and all sorts that i’d never really experienced before. I guess being out as Cinnamon at the kinky parties has given me a confidence, and an escape. I know I did all my kinky things locked away at home in the past but now I have an avenue to explore it all, and luckily I feel totally accepted. This has really helped me in my vanilla life, yes damn I have a pretty crappy day job, but I no longer feel miserable about it every day. I know that its just an essential part of life that helps me indulge in this other side of me.

Somehow in real life as well I feel more confident. Maybe when I was hiding this side of me away deep down I thought there was something wrong with me, i’ve realized now that there isn’t, everybody is different and theres nothing wrong with being myself.  Yes in vanilla life there aren’t exactly many people who know. I think i’ll keep it that way, but most people around me (friends, family, colleagues) say I seem much happier now, Ironically some of them think I have a secret girlfriend or something.

Looking forward I know i’ll keep exploring my kinks and fetishes, and am looking forward to trying some more things that Mistress Courtney has mentioned, and attend more kinky events as and when I can. Although I dont really go in for the phones ex calls anymore though I do still have a soft spot for the Mean Girls, I think the calls I had with them over the course of a year built me into a position where I felt the urge to explore in real life. I tell you I am so glad I did.

Cinnamon

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A Date With Mistress

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For our date, I would first take a shower and wash my hair, so that I smell good. Then I would brush my teeth to make sure my breath is OK. I would read and memorize some jokes from a joke book in case a situation came up where a joke might be appropriate.

When I pick you up for our date, I would make sure I brought you a gift. A feminine gift, such as flowers, seems like a pretty good idea.

If the weather is too hot or too cold for comfort, I would make sue that I parked close enough to your place so that we could get to my car fairly quickly.

Assuming that dinner is involved here, I would take you to a very nice restaurant and sit at a more private table where we could talk about things. I might ask you about your recent medical experience, although that might not be very romantic.

Although I realize this is fantasy, I find it difficult to think about this right now knowing that I still consider you to be fragile and somewhat in pain. It is difficult for me to separate your healing body from the fantasy that I want to have. But here goes.

After taking you back to your place, I imagine that I would end up partially clothed (or less) and on my knees before, either as a result of you giving me a command or you pusing me physically into such a position. Then you would roll me over onto my back and strip off your panties and sit down roughly on my face, rubbing your pussy back and forth on my nose and mouth while stroking my cock. You would keep stroking my cock but keep stopping when I would get close to cumming.

Once you had enough orgasms from rubbing yourself on my face, you would roll me back over onto my hands and knees and apply lubricant to my ass. Then you would fuck me with your strap-on. You would do this for a fairly long time, while reaching around and occasionally stroking me, but still not letting me cum.

When you were finally bored with this, you would throw my clothes at me and tell me to get dressed and get out. I would comply, while begging you to have another date soon. No promises from you.

… Provided by one very loyal slave!

Talk Soon,

Miss Peyton

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Ownership

OwnershipToday we are going to touch on Ownership of ones mind body and soul. Now think carefully to what it is you ask Mistress for. As I understand some of you may look at the fun you have with me as a game but keep in mind that I take from you each and every time you inter act with me.

What does that mean you ask? Oh well to answer that question you must first examine yourself. Think about how aroused every one of your senses become while you let me take Ownership of that body. Also consider how far in that moment you are willing to following me into the darkness you’ve already asked me for.

For example, if you’ve never actually sucked a real cock but have admitted to me that you’ve thought about it, someplace during our time together you are begging me to help you find a real one to slip between those lips of yours. Or if you’ve never put on panties and have admitted to me you’d love to experience being a sissy and take the first step into transformation, well it isn’t too long before I have you begging me to take you for online shopping trips helping you pick out what would make me the happiest to see you wearing.

I mean you get the idea, what ever it is, what ever it looks like, the list goes on and on. I do take ownership of you in every way, and the hard truth is, you give it to me. My question to you is are you ready for the next step? I know I am.
Talk Soon Naughty Ones,
Mistress Peyton

Pretty Little Liar-A Sissy Story

Pretty Little Liar, A Sissy Story is about a boy and his cock, it always has betrayed him, he’s such a liar, although he can’t seem to help himself.

We do the best we can with what we have I’ve been told. One of my favorite things about my job is I get to do the most glam things with you sexy boys. Recently I had the opportunity to dress up a sexy boy who told me such a beautiful lie.

I guess we’ll just say his name is John for secrets sake….. ~smirk~ John said he’d always wanted to see what it would be like to dress like a girl. So I happily obliged. I love all things girlie so it just comes natural to me to take my time with these things, I love the whole planning and shopping and getting it together for you aspect of it.

While we were on our call and had him dressed he had the nerve to tell me he wasn’t the least bit excited about his transformation. I could tell he was lying by the way his breath had caught in his chest. I asked him again A Sissy Storyand he declined to admit to me that he’d been the least bit excited by what we had done to him.

After much coaxing and talking we decided he no longer had a penis and now has a clit and we shall grow from there. Imagine a clit where once a cock had been, yes I said it, clit. This is a clit that my sweet sissy pet John will only get to play with as if he were a girl. Imagine all the room for growth here.

I’ll keep you posted. We shall walk through this pretty little liar’s story together. Until next time, stay true to you.
Mistress Peyton

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Sissy Slut Phone Sex

So let me ask you a question..Are you a good sissy slut?

Do you have what it takes to become a good gurl for me? One concept I really get into is you and I taking you by the hand and transforming your mind and body to be the best it can be for me.  Sissy Slut

If you have girlie thoughts I’d love to explore those with you. Take you on journeys you’ve yet to come. I’ll guide you each step of the way. Every Sissy needs a good Mistress to assist them in day to day tasks to keep them on point.

My goal is to bring out the best Sissy Slut you can be on our phone sex sessions.   We can work out a schedule for you to do on all points of your personal growth system. I’ll assign you daily tasks and more. I expect that you give me 110% when we work out your individual plan. Anything less will cause me to punish a slut.

Call Me to get started today. I’ll be waiting to begin a new and exciting journey with you.

Talk Soon Naughty One,
Mistress Peyton

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